I’m Official: The 2018 Chicago Marathon!

Ok so its on! I am officially registered and paid for 2018 Chicago Marathon and I have been accepted on to team AFSP as an official runner! To donate to the AFSP / my campaign check out the link below!


So let me address the main question, Why the hell would I do this to myself again?

In Mile 23 of NYC I said, to myself that this was probably it. I don’t ever want to feel like this ever again.  Shortly after the race I said the opposite but throwing marathon training on top of my currently pretty packed life was a complicated decision.  So I put it up on the shelf for a while.

I love reading books about bettering yourself and studying the human experience. After reading a great book, which I highly, highly recommend,  Design Your Future by an  old Ramsey friend Dominick Quartuccio,

here he is looking very Dawson’s Creek- esque 😉 

I am trying to apply the concepts and methods he lays out in the book to my daily life.

Buy the book- http://www.dominickq.com/book-design-future/

Here is more about Dom too http://www.dominickq.com/

He gives great advice about challenging yourself and how to do it with the goal of living the happiest and most productive life possible. I keep this book on my night stand and as I was reflecting on it one day I asked my self, “when did I feel I was at my best?” I realized that the answer was when I was working toward the goal of running  a marathon and consequently (with a lot of help from a lot of people) helped make the world a little bit of a better place. I got in great shape, dealt with the trauma of loosing a close friend, started a blog, was able to participate in two marathons including the NYC Marathon, which is top three best days of my life (for real!)  So I ran a couple of Half Marathons this fall and though about Chicago.

Training for a marathon is half awesome and half awful. You get in great shape mentally and physically but the weeks with multiple long runs are very taxing in the same way, on top of real life.

That being said, I don’t know how many more marathons I have in me. So if Im going to run 26.2 Miles I want to go BIG! My buddy Eric and I decided about a year ago after NYC that we would take a year off from marathons and sign up for Chicago 2018. (Even though I believe he did two more, Philly and Boston, right after saying that 🙂

not my best pic…

I checked out the dates about a month ago and saw the lottery opened up on 10/31. So I checked with Eric to see if he was still up for it. (I knew he was in,  I was using one of Dom’s techniques about basically letting other people in on your goals so you basically cant back out of them)

So, The registration just went up the other day and we both signed up for charity runs. I’m very proud to be running on the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention team again. Initially I was thinking of choosing to get in on the lottery or pick another charity but my buddy Griff has been “showing up” a lot  lately, so Ill take the hint 😉

(Griff had a “colorful” sense of humor to say the least, so trust me when I say he would love the above)


Ok one more!

miss ya buddy:-)

Any way, I feel invigorated and excited to take on this challenge once again. The race is October 7th 2018  so I’v got some time to get ready and raise money. I am very excited to get the blog going again! I promise as many mundane adventures as I can and some new insights. I am going to bench the word and Unicorn of the day to make room for new (currently unknown) blog features.

Thanks all!

Quote of the Day from a hero of mine:



Part II- Final Post: Running with Eddie and Freddy.

Hey Everyone!

I sat in this very spot one year or so ago and I decided to do something which I considered big and way out of my comfort zone. I decided to raise $500.00 for the AFSP as a tribute to the lives of RHS Music Booster Dr. Fred Fiume and my dear friend Mr. Eddie Griffin.

I would honestly say that this entire endeavor of Running w/ Eddie and Freddy was 50/50 selfless and selfish. I was struggling with the loss of my good friend and shared in the pain of the Fiume family every day. I am a do-er.  I don’t like to sit around and wait or search for answers to problems, I like to take action. Unfortunately in this situation I was at a loss. Nothing I could do would bring these men back or ease the pain of their families. Nothing I was doing, or not doing, was easing any of my own pain either. Nevertheless, I reached out to Joanne and Yasumi, told them my idea, and asked them for their permission to use Eddie’s and Freddy’s likeness and stories to raise money for the AFSP by running. They obviously gave it their blessings. I figured this organization, which Eddie loved, needs all the help it can get and I did not know if if would help me or not but at least it is something I can do and just might make me feel a little better. So I, bought a website, started a personal campaign with the AFSP and have been bothering you all ever since;-)

I mentioned before that when I set up the site I aimed high with a goal of $5000 but really only expecting $500. It would take me too long to count up the number of donations the two campaigns have received along the way but I can tell you that the NJ Marathon campaign brought in $5339.92 to the AFSP and the NYC Marathon campaign brought in (after a huge boost from the Fiume’s charitable efforts) $3795.00 for a total $9134.92!  Incredible! Thank you seems to fall short but I will say it again, Thank You, Thank You, Thank YOU!!!!!

So after all of this running, hurting, healing, talking, blogging, and fundraising I find myself today a better human being in so many ways but still equally as confused as before. Through this whole process my belief in my fellow man, as well as myself, has grown. Like I said I had a goal of $500. I never expected the outpouring of love and support for these men and this endeavor from so many. I am very humbled and grateful to have been a part of that. I do not have any proof but I do believe that our donations to the AFSP have, at a minimum, made a difference in many, many lives and possibly saved a couple along the way.

Many people have asked me over the past few days about the NYC marathon and what it was like. I described it in my previous post but my stock answer is “It was equally awesome and awful at the same time.” Which is very accurate btw. But I have also said this, “If you want to see the best of humanity, go run or watch this race.” From the moment I left my house Sunday morning until I went to bed that night, I was engulfed in positive energy. Everyone I met or saw was nice, helpful, respectful, supportive, united and just happy. The most amazing thing is this, there was absolutely no reason for anyone to be any of those things. There was nothing in it for anyone. NOTHING! no money, no fame, no time gained, no position, power, advancement, degree, job, love NOTHING! It is just a whole ton of people either watching or running in the same direction… thats it. Yet, everyone involved in every way shape or form was together and just happy and supportive of their fellow man for no reason at all…and it was awesome:-)

In three days time I have experienced the above and where we are at today. Don’t worry I’m not going to get political here or tell you that we need to unite blah blah…  I will share something that I have learned though through all of this and it has helped me understand things a bit more. This whole process has reaffirmed my belief that all people are innately good. This belief has not always served me well, and may not in my future but I still believe it and believe in it. All actions come from a good place. Things may get twisted and/or shifted along the way but I believe that people will do what they feel is best for everyone. Trying to get to that realization behind people’s words or actions is a very hard  thing to do but since I have been actively more mindful of people’s motivations I have found myself much less confused than before.

So a couple of years ago I started running to get in shape. Since, I have done a number of races, ran a couple of half marathons, became a blogger, connected with nature, reconnected with an old friend/new surgeon, lost an organ, got a sweet tattoo, ran a marathon, discovered 90’s rap, reconsidered some dreams, ran another marathon (faster than Tiki Barber ;-)coped and healed from the loss of my friends, experienced the best of humanity and through it all found the best of myself.

I did not plan for any of the above yet here I am. So having experienced all of this, and still equally confused about life, I will embody the mantra of “Nothing changes by staying the same.”  I will go forward as I did in this endeavor believing in myself, my abilities and my fellow man. I do not know what this blog of mundane adventures will become for I do not know what I will become, but I have some ideas…:-)

Thank you all for reading and coming with me on this journey as well as for all of the love and support! I send it right back to you.

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Thank you Eddie and Freddy.



Part 1:NYC Marathon & Me, Mile by Mile

Part 1:

November 6th 2016


Mile-0 wake up 4 am. Im dressed like a hobo. Gear loaded up. Eric picks me up and we head to Ridgewood Cycle to catch the Marathon Bus to Staten Island.

Eat our bagels on the bus. They shut down the highway 2 miles away from the Verrazano Bridge so we sit in traffic for about 45 min before arriving at Fort Wadsworth at the base of the bridge at around 7:45 am.

Security is very, very tight but the NYPD was AWESOME! Not just helpful but super kind, respectful and supportive. Thank you NYPD!

Wander around a bit, take care of business a couple of times and head to our respective villages. I was in Blue Village, Eric in Green. I gather my gear, strap up all of my gels, gummies, band aids and take my last sips of water before getting in the corral. Meet some cool people in there. Everyone is very excited and anxious to start. Wave one has just taken off!

As we start to move forward to get in position for Wave 2, I notice that the bathroom lines are scarce so I decided to jump over and get in there one last time. Serendipitously I bumped into a guy on my team AFSP who I had been communicating with on our facebook group. Chris Graham up from the DC area! Great Guy!


We pushed up to the start, I saw the 3::45 pacer. And moved out into a maze of charter busses right in front of the toll booths. So I officially crossed the bridge for free;-) I appeared to be surround by Germans and a woman with the words “Beer Girl” on her shirt? Everyone is pretty anxious at this point. We hear God Bless America faintly being sung and then a very loud cannon shot to start our wave. Kinda reminded me of the hunger games actually… So we slowly shuffled our way out to the bridge and with the cameras moving on to us and the DJ Pumping we took our first steps over the starting line. It was very exciting because you cant see anything being surrounded by the busses until you hit the bridge and the horizon opens up!

Mile 1&2- Verrazano Bridge (upper level)- Mile one is up the bridge, adrenaline was going so I did not mind the steep incline. The view to my right was the Atlantic Ocean, to my left was the most spectacular view of the morning sun illuminating lower Manhattan, Statue Liberty and all, as we ran over the FDNY Fire boats spiraling water jets below us! No cars, not much sound except the pounding of thousands of feet. There were a lot of people taking pics etc. Mile two is down the bridge. As we crested the bridge an NYPD Helicopter flew down right next to us on the same level we were running IT WAS AWESOME!!!! Cops were waving at us as they were hovering and everyone was going nuts, it was crazy!

Mile 3-Bay Ridge Brooklyn- Once off the bridge and around the corner people went wild! DJ’s going, bands playing and everyone shouting “Welcome to Brooklyn!”

Mile 4- As I finished mile 3 I looked ahead and saw a massive road full of runners intersecting our road as the Orange Village combined with ours on 3rd ave. I forgot that there were the other two Villages running on the lower level of the bridge, as we combined we engulfed the whole road.

Mile 5-8 Uphill- we were cooking at a decent pace in a straight line but then people started to fall back so it became very hard to push forward and keep my desired pace of 8:30. Imaging the mall at Christmas time but everyone is jogging at different speeds.

Mile 9- to begin mile 9 I saw another river of runners joining us on Lafayette Ave. I actually turned to the guy next to me and said “Great just what we need more runners!” It was packed!

Miles 10-13 Williamsburg, Greenpoint- Moved our way North up Brooklyn. The water areas got really tight and it was very difficult to run especially as the streets narrowed. After the water areas your feet would stick to the pavement from all of the spilled Gatorade. Brooklyn was hopping though. Lots of great music, mostly live and GOOD! Everyone was partying and lots of good signs and Hi-5’s even the cops were cheering and slapping hands! it was great.

Mile 13-14 As we crossed over into Queens on a Small but steep bridge, very few people. I saw a runner who looked dead on the median with cops all around him about 3/4 of the way up. His eyes were wide open but definitely unconscious. Kinda scary.

Mile 14-15 59 St. Queensboro Bridge. ob-ne778_0323ny_f_20110323172255

We enter the bridge on the lower level. It gets eerily quite. No spectators, just pounding of feet and a lot of really heavy breathing. Oh and it is a really steep incline 90% of the way! I saw a lot of runners walking at this point. It was tough. On my way up the bridge I saw the 4 hour pacer IN FRONT OF ME!!!! I got very angry. I was shooting for 3:45. SO I took off and just started burning past people. I resolved not to be over 4 hours.

Mile 16– Manhattan 1st ave- Definitely one of the most exhilarating moments of the race is exiting the Queensboro Bridge on to 1st ave. As you near the end of the bridge you hear a high pitched almost static. then you round the corner and see a short street packed with people going nuts! THEN you round a quick corner to First ave where you can see straight ahead for 4 miles of Avenue stacked 7 rows deep with people going INSANE cheering everyone on! oh and did I mention that it was uphill?  Good news was that it opened up here so you could keep a decent pace without having to weave in and out too much.

Mile 17-19 Somewhere in here I saw a woman fall. It was pretty scary. She did get up though so I think she was ok. Another thing I did not expect was how people go crazy when they would see people they know. Your running and then all of a sudden someone near you screams really loud and scares the heck out of you! Pretty cool though to watch people support each other.  I had an awful random thought somewhere in here ” Wait, its Sunday…I have to go to work tomorrow ;-(” But almost immediately after that thought I found my self running next to a man who was pushing his son of about age 12-13 in a racing wheelchair, both of them were smiling, talking and having a good time. It put me in my place real quick and made me think of my kids and smile. 1st ave was a zoo and was awesome!

Mile 20– Cramp…. This freaked me out as we were crossing into the Bronx. I have never cramped before while running. I had felt myself getting fatigued around 18 so I did start to worry. My right front quad right above my knee was cramping bad and I felt it twitching a lot. This was quickly joined by the same spot on my left quad. I did not know what to do so I just kept going and hoped it would work itself out. It never got to the point of unbearable pain but definitely slowed me down. The Bronx was cool though. Chill people, a lot of spanish music, cowbells and dancing, great energy! Someone had a sign that said “Beyonce is at the end!” I liked running through there and I would recommend watching from there!

Mile 21 we crossed back into Manhattan. I heard a lets go Rangers chant and someone had a “This is the last Bridge” sign. We did 5 bridges in the race…

Mile 21-22  All I heard was how bad 5th ave was before the race. So as I ran out of the Bronx and through Harlem I thought “this is fine” flat and open. My cramping was getting pretty bad though so I decided to stretch it out at the next H2O station…Bad Idea… just before mile 22 I pulled off to the beginning of the table to grab a gatorade and stretch my right quad. As I attempted to do this my hamstring recoiled in shooting pain. I screamed really loudly. A man working the table, who I guess was bored, sprang into action and forcefully tried to hustle me into a medical tent. I calmly tried to explain to him that I just had a cramp but I guess he did not listen and kept saying “Medical Attention!” Now, its mile 22, I not only had found “The Wall” but slammed into it full speed so needless to say I was not stopping! So I screamed at him “It’s a CRAMP!” and then just ran away…

Mile 23-24 – 5th ave. You cant see it until you come around a corner and there it was. A really NASTY incline that you can see for two miles. I really thought I was going to pass out. So I just put my head down and schlepped up the hill. Everyone must have looked pretty bad at this point because even the crowd looked scared. As I neared the top of the hill I noticed that the area on my right looked like central park. That was a good sign. Oh and BTW, this is prob about where I blew past TIKI Barber who started 45 minutes ahead of me… images-35That’s what you get for dissing the team Tiki,… I got your back Eli.


Mile 25– Central Park, Downhill at first. Better than up hill but my feet had been numb for about an hour and my cramping was just holding off but ready to pop. NO STOPPING, Just keep going is all I could think. Up to this point I had no idea if I would see My Wife or not. There were only 2 miles to go and I knew that she could not get to the last mile without a ticket so I was doubting that I would see her. So right about the end of mile 25 I must have heard My sister in law Beth scream my name on my left and I looked to see Eileen on the side of the road. I think I yelled “Hun!” but I’m not sure. So she jumped up to chase me because I yelled “I cant STOP!!!” meaning if I do I will collapse, which got a chuckle from the crowd. She ran with me and gave me a great big kiss which was awesome! It was exactly what I needed at that point. Then I cried a bit because you are just so overwhelmed with emotion and exhaustion and I just wanted to finish.

Mile 26- was packed! Now I appreciate well wishing but, if your ever at the end of a race, don’t ever shout “Dig Deep” or “Finish Strong”! I heard this in mile 26 and so I cursed a lot. Just cause your digging deep into your appletini and working off brunch does not give you the right to tell me to do the same. Just stick with “You got this!” and Way to go!” etc. Any way, just trying to stay on my feet at this point as I cursed out the band playing “Born to Run” on the corner 😉 Sorry Bruce… nothing personal, your still the boss:-)

Mile 26.2- Would you believe me if I told you it was up hill… it was. So as I moved up to the finish line some guy right in front of me busts out his flag and hits me in the face. So I moved to the right, smiled arms up and tried not to trip over the finish line. 3::57!


Sorry this was so long. Part 2 will wrap it up and be shorter. Thanks all!!!!!


Last Pre-Race Post!!!!

Hi all!

This is it! Pasta in the belly, last training run complete, alarm set for 4 am! NYC Marathon tomorrow!!!!!

This training program has been hanging on my fridge for months now and I have only one more to cross off. It has been another great journey this time around and I’m even more humbled and grateful than before.


My buddy Eric and I head to Ridgewood tomorrow morning to catch the charter bus from Ridgewood Cycle to Staten Island. (see link below for course map.)



Across to Brooklyn, up to Queens, Over to Manhattan, up to the Bronx then back down 5th ave into central park!

Here is what I got!


I have Eddies Hat that Yasumi gave me and the FIUME name tag as well. lots of gummies, pretzels and of course CRAISINS!!

You can track me along the way! I’m in the second wave starting at 10:15 am. Bib number #24202 link below



Sorry to cut this one short. I am very tired and want to sleep. I look forward to writing about this event in a final blog. Thank you thank you Thank you to everyone who has donated, supported and helped make the world a better place by honoring Eddie and Freddy through the AFSP! We raised over $9000 between NJ and NYC marathons and the TEAM AFSP for the NYC Marathon has collectively raised over $58,000!

Im so very proud to be a part of this and I cant wait to take Eddie and Freddy on a final run through NYC! Thanks again all!


Follow ME in NYC! Bib#24202!

Hi all!,

It’s Race Week!!!! This sunday 11/6 I will partake in the massive event call the TCS NYC Marathon! Never in my life did I think (or even want to) say that! I have heard nothing but awesome things about this event ( with the exception that it is not flat.) This race will be the biggest thing/event I will ever actively participate  in with 50,000+ people racing! (I’m not saying Im going to win but… top 3 probably 😉 I am excited an honored to be not only in the race but representing the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention (AFSP) on their official team.cropped-cropped-487655_229021067_XLarge-1-2.jpg

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I am super pumped up for this race and I cant wait until Sunday! A lot of you have told me you will be there so…..If you are coming out to the race PLEASE let me know this week where about you think you will be watching from so I can look and wave! I will post another blog later in the week about my gear etc. but I want to bring a list of people to look for and where. Also I will be keeping my phone off before the race because I want to make sure I have enough battery life so I will not be turning it on until just before I go so don’t text me right before the race I wont get it.

My Start time is 10:15 am. I am in Blue Wave 2, Corral F. You can track me (and 19 other runners) on your phone with the app below My bib # is 24202 !!!



My training has gone great! I am way faster than I planned on being and Im now shooting for a 3 hour 45 minute marathon! So if all goes to plan I will be done around 2pm!

Thanks to every one who has donated to both campaigns, and for all of the well wishes and encouragement. At least on more blog post to come before the race.

Word of the day : Moot- adjective

subject to debate, dispute, or uncertainty, and typically not admitting of a final decision: whether the temperature rise was mainly due to the greenhouse effect was a moot point .

• having no practical significance, typically because the subject is too uncertain to allow a decision: it is moot whether this phrase should be treated as metaphor or not.

verb [ with obj. ] (usu. be mooted)

raise (a question or topic) for discussion; suggest (an idea or possibility): Sylvia needed a vacation, and a trip to Ireland had been mooted.


1 Brit.an assembly held for debate, esp. in Anglo-Saxon and medieval times.

• a regular gathering of people having a common interest.

2 Law a mock trial set up to examine a hypothetical case as an academic exercise.

Unicorn of the day:


SONO Half, PR’s for all!

Hey All!


This past weekend was the South Norwalk 5K/Half Marathon. We signed up for this about 6 months back. My brother in law Chris Olson14717318_10100276928949542_2561625783679313776_n(Star of the stage and screen)

has worked the event for a couple of years now so we made it a family event. I included it as part of my NYC Training, Eileen put it on the calendar as her first 13.1, my Sister in law Beth ran the 5K and my In-Laws Bob and Pat decided to walk the 5K. (at least that was the plan:-)


The day started out very cold. We woke up two sleepy kids around 6 am and took the  mini van up to Norwalk CT.  We picked up the rest of the Olson clan and headed to Vets Park where the race started. It was an all-star event. Bob Duff was there!



I have met Sen. Duff. Really Really nice guy! So if you live in the Greater Norwalk CT area jonkinne.com officially endorses his 2016 campaign.

Also, on line for the bathroom, I bumped into my old friend Steve who I grew up with in Ramsey and moved up to the Norwalk area when we were about 13.


This was his bachelor party 😉 Steve is a great guy with an awesome family. We had so many great times as kids with the Tisdale crew. Fun fact! Steve’s Ramsey phone number was 327-SEXY! big hit in the 80’s:-)

So the plan was this, Pop-Pop was grounded so he could not make the race so we put his number on the Double stroller with the kid-os. Pat would walk some of the 5K w/ the kids and the double stroller. Beth was running the 5K and Eileen and I lined up for the Half.

Beth Ran the 5K with a PR (personal Record) 14657449_10100276928829782_3716168538486306011_n

Eileen did her first Half Marathon (so automatic PR) in 2 hours and 4 minutes! that is an awesome time, better than my first half!


I also had a PR of One Hour 47 minutes!


Nana, pushed the two kido’s on the 5K. Now, Im in pretty good shape and I have pushed Ellie and James in the double stroller recently. This is no easy task. They weigh about 70 lbs together and plus the stroller it is 80+ lbs easy. Since there were three of them I would say she walked a 15K! Great job Nana.


Here is the fun part. Nana, was a rock star crossing the finish line even though she was technically in last place for the 5K.  But right on her heels was the guy who was winning the Half Marathon (not me 😉 so they hustled her along the finish line, busted out the tape for the guy to cross and in all of the commotion tripped over nana and the Kidos! BUT the best part is that Nana came in second in her age group for the 5K so she got an award…Who beat her you ask? POP POP! Since we pinned his number to the stroller it technically crossed the finish line before her so pop pop won his age group and he was not even there! They both got medals and trophies!


All and all it was a great race. Norwalk is really a beautiful town and the race was great. Very very well organized, pretty run, hilly yes but I will do it again next year. Great job to all!

Word of the day:

intrepid |inˈtrepid|


fearless; adventurous (often used for rhetorical or humorous effect): our intrepid reporter.

Unicorn of the day (Courtesy of Mrs. Nicole Kidman Bowden)



Fear & the BIG 20 Mile!

Hey Kids,

I am currently using a hybrid of Hal Higdon’s Novice 1 and 2 plans. ( you can click on the Novice 1 18 week training plan on the left) I have had to move some big runs around for a variety of reasons but the big 20 miler had to be moved to this past weekend. It was on the schedule for next weekend, which is 3 weeks before NYC, but the ol’ Soulmate and I have the SONO Half Marathon to run up in Norwalk CT that weekend.  On Saturday Eileen Crushed her big 10 mile run right here in  O-Town! She is looking good and ready to go!!!! Im predicting a 2::10 or better finish for her. Again another converted “I hate running” runner!


So this past sunday I headed out on a semi familiar route to do the Big 20 mile run. Hal Higdon, who’s book Marathon that I reference all of the time, is in the camp of don’t train over 20 miles. His rational is that our bodies can only hold so much glycogen and it basically runs out at 20 miles no matter who you are or how much you train. So to avoid injury he, and many others, recommend not training over 20. And I am fine with that BTW.

This section of the training is not fun. You are doing 5 mile runs on Tues and Thurs. and anywhere from 6 to 9 mile runs on Wednesdays with a very long run on the weekends. I have basically 13-ish mile runs for the next couple of weeks as my long ones but I may throw in an 18-20 two weeks before the race depending on how I am doing. I do have a goal of a Sub-4 Hour marathon for NYC but I’m also realistic about the race being hectic and crowded so we will just have to see.

To do the 20 I started out at the bottom of the Saddle River Trail in Rochelle Park, ran to the top of the trail, through Ridgewood, into and around Ho-Ho-Kus then doubled back.


Dont forget to be my friend on RunKeeper 🙂


I got to thinking and after my first:

 Random Thought While Running

“Was the first duck that thought of this like, Hey! you got to try this, totally keeps your bill warm!”


About fear and our relationship with it. Our first reaction about fear tends to be “NO FEAR! Fear is bad! I’m Fearless!” We tell out kids, “Dont be scare, its not real, Its all in your head.” But in thinking about fear, and what it really is, I recalled a conversation I had many years ago with my friend Sean about being in the Marines

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He was telling a funny story about his time in boot camp and I remember him saying something to the effect of, ” When I got out of basic I had no fear. It was like it was erased. But I’v realized that fear is is usually a good thing, it keeps you out of trouble.”

Now before I get attacked by a bunch of Military folk I realize that the training involved here is preparing you for a situation where the absence of fear is pretty essential to achieving your mission and keeping you and those around you alive. The removal of fear has its place. That being said, for the rest of us fear is always present at some level and it can exist in many different capacities. I read recently that our brains have solved the problems of 50,000 years ago, so we have that going for us ;-). So our fears as survival mechanisms don’t always fit or are mixed up in our modern lives.

So I challenge all of us to examine our fears and assess their impact on our behaviors and actions. Ask yourself if your level of fear is appropriate and/or even necessary? Is it really keeping you safe or is it holding you back? Is it rational? Are you using it out of convenience? Unpack your fears unabashedly to find out where it comes from and make sure you trim it appropriately, even in small doses, to ensure that your fears remain beneficial. This is hard and ironically SCARY!

In all of this I came to the conclusion that we, at least for my self, should try to strike a balance between a healthy level of fear that keeps us safe, and a bold attitude that does not hold us back from attaining what we want out of this life. Ultimately we can not directly control our emotions or those of others. What we can control is our behaviors and actions which in turn can influence our emotions, including fear. It has been my experience in confronting fears that I can not erase them or remove them but in exploring them I can appropriately file and manage their impact which has resulted in achieving things that I used to think were impossible.

Now, the ultimate stroke of Irony 😉 The last time I did the Big 20 I ran a similar route up through Ho-Ho-Kus which I mentioned was kind of a second home to me as a kid. Its where my Dad grew up and we spent a ton of time there as kids. I mentioned this to my co worker friend Chelsea 13600326_10207595221541878_7258387685244728002_nwho is a native of the Ho-Ho-Kus and she said “You ran right by my house!” So for this 20 I made her house a mid point destination because she was kind enough to put out some water for me, like a dog 😉  JK, she left me the good stuff, Poland Spring! it’s from Maine you know, so its better… Thanks Chelsea


Ironically, right after pounding the ol’ Polish Juice, taking this selfie and finishing my water I looked at the stone post that this water is sitting on and realized that I was standing dangerously close to my biggest fear…


One of these lovely ladies was crouched with in inches of my arm! ahhhhahh FEAR!!!!! I told Chelsea about this because this thing obviously has a mission to kill every living thing it can bite. Chelsea agreed and is currently burning the house to the ground. This fear does have some rational value. Some spiders can be very dangerous, most are not. They are actually really important parts of our eco system.So, I looked it up and I was surprised that it had a very mundane name and not something like Yellow Fanged Death Twilight Crawler Under Your Pillow. It is actually called a Female Yellow Garden Spider and is quite harmless. Years ago I made a deal with spiders and I believe it is working out well for all involved. If a spider is outdoors and does not touch me, it lives, untouched. If it comes in my house and/or touches me… I reserve the right to terminate it from the earth!


This one chose wisely so I left it alone.


eeegggghhhhh…… Spiders, Fear, Sports!

So all and all it was a good run at marathon pace!

Finally a huge shout out to Mrs. Cristina Bernotas!10302692_10202589997940377_5644334647622343480_n

Pictured here in a glamor shot with some random fisherman. JK that is her Local Composer/Band Director/Part time hand model husband Chris:-) 

Cristina will be running her second 26.2, the Steamtown PA Marathon this Sunday. Her training has been great and she is going to crush it!!!!! Remember what you told me, “Just Don’t Stop!” Kick Ass Cristina!!!!!!!

Word of the day: 

trepidation |ˌtrepiˈdāSHən|


1 a feeling of fear or agitation about something that may happen: the men set off in fear and trepidation.

2 archaic trembling motion.

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Jon Kinne Half Marathon Deux!

Hey Kids!

Sunday, I defended my title at the Jon Kinne Half Marathon and finished a strong first dominating the field once again!:-)


I was a bit faster this year because I did not just have surgery. I had to get out early because we were due up in Norwalk CT for a festival at my in laws church so I headed out around 8 am, which is early for me. The day started out pretty cold actually but It was nice to run in the cool dry weather.

I have found that there two camps in running, Music runners and NO music runners, with very few in between. I inquired from my sisters old time friend Peyton

Dec 22, 2013; Houston, TX, USA; Denver Broncos quarterback Peyton Manning (18) gives a thumbs up to cheering fans against the Houston Texans during the second half at Reliant Stadium. The Broncos won 37-13. Mandatory Credit: Thomas Campbell-USA TODAY Sports
” Doing great Jon, lets hang out more!”

Nah, actually this Peyton (here with my Sis Ashley


Who is a long time accomplished Marathon runner and has done NYC Marathon a few times before about NYC and she recommended that you leave the ear buds at home for the NYC Marathon. So being a music listener I was curious so I tried running without music on Sunday. I only lasted about 4 miles…

As I have said before I love the solitude and meditative aspect of running. But just my thoughts and my breathing were a little too much for me. I guess since Im a music teacher and I have to concentrate and think intensely while music is happening every day my mind is very accustomed to focusing while I’m actively listening to music. So needless to say the next 9.1 miles had music going:-)

I did see some interesting stuff as usual on this one. Remember that house with chickens I saw last week? This week, Ducks, Big white ones!imgres-22

And a there was a large group of men, who looked Indian but Im not sure, who were playing Cricket! I tried to watch as I ran by, I found it to be equally as boring as American Baseball:-)


So it was a rather mundane run. Quiet on the trail. Time was good and I felt OK, not my best.

Random thought wile running: 

Im glad I don’t have a lot of interactions with eels, they freak me out…”

Word of the day:Zanzibar |ˈzanzəˌbär|

an island off the coast of East Africa, part of Tanzania; pop. 1,207,500 (2009, with Pemba). In 1964, it became a republic and united with Tanganyika to form Tanzania.


Zanzibari |ˌzanzəˈbärē|adjective& noun

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Running it up with my soul mate


Greetings all, quick one today:

I guess it’s the time of year when our local wildlife gets ready for winter.  Lots of road kill, Deer and Extra Crazy squirrelsimgres-21

The Saddle River Trail is no exception. I did a 15-er last weekend and saw some cool stuff, mostly animals:-) It was the usual cache of dogs and birds with some new comers. Saw chickens for the first time in the back yard of a house I have run past 100 times. One cool thing on the trail is that the Deer are very, very calm around people. You can run within a couple of feet of them and they barely lift up their head to notice you. images-28 images-29

I actually saw a woman hand feeding a little guy 🙂

This week was busy so skipped my Tues and Thursday runs. I only did an 8-mile on Wednesday.


Not that 8 Mile…But if it was, I’d take that sucka down and Mekhi Phifer and I would be in my crew. Chedda-BOB!

Anyway, My wife Eileen and I both had big runs on our schedule for today, I had a 16 mile and she had a 9 mile. I was debating doing my run at all since I have not been feeling well lately and I think it’s because I’m running too much. But we decided to go out and do a 6 or 7 mile run together.

So me and the ol’ soulmate headed out and felt great so we tacked on a few extra and completed a 9 mile-er! We both ran well an the rain stayed away:-)

I usually don’t like to run with other people. I enjoy the solitude and the meditative qualities but I’ll always make an exception for my wife. Don’t want to end up here…


I kid ;-)We had a good run around Oakland. She is doing great with her training and she is definitely ready for the SONO half on 10/15. Even though you can not talk too much when your running it is just nice to get out and do stuff together that does not involve cleaning, working or chasing after kids.

Word of the Day:

soul mate(also soulmate )noun

a person ideally suited to another as a close friend or romantic partner.


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